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peter: hi friend
can we get together?: hey there
can we get together?: how r u?
peter: doing ok – did not spent as much time online yesterday – trying to cut back a bit
can we get together?: i didn’t go online yesterday
peter: yeah i dont think i went into chat — i have to cut back cause spening lots of my time off in chat rooms
can we get together?: in chat rooms? so ur chattin with a lot of people?
peter: some different guys – but have told only a very few about my tie idea – you are the only one we have discussed it so thoroughly
can we get together?: oh
peter: you think i should not mention it too often?
peter: still there?
can we get together?: mention what too often?
peter: that i feel to be tied
can we get together?: its okay
peter: sometimes i wonder if too young to be considering this
can we get together?: no
can we get together?: ur not too young to try it
can we get together?: and no one is too young to try something
peter: yeah but if fetish go wrong it might be kindof early
peter: 25 if in august
peter: busy today?
can we get together?: no
can we get together?: just finished eating
can we get together?: fetish gone wrong? we’ve already talked about it before
peter: yeah i guess it can but not so likely
can we get together?: yes
peter: i guess not knowing is part of the whole experience
can we get together?: yes baby
can we get together?: when are u cumming to the philippines?
can we get together?: any tentative schedule?
peter: april may – some say beginning of april is good
can we get together?: yes, i told u, april 5 to 12 is a good time to go here
peter: yeah that is when the island gets filled with many of us type guys
can we get together?: yes
peter: hehe i have thought sometimes the story you tell me about the keyboard
can we get together?: wasn’t it nnice
peter: hehe kindof protecting urself but still having fun
peter: so you still want to be bottom during the thing?
can we get together?: yeah, that’s still a good option
peter: hehe will i be tightening the belt myself via the fucking?
can we get together?: you may
can we get together?: but i think if ur fucking me, ill be pulling the belt towards me
can we get together?: if if i’m fucking u, i’ll hold the belt
peter: u prefer fucking me or getting fucked?
can we get together?: any
can we get together?: both
peter: its exciting but sometimes the idea sounds almost suicidal
can we get together?: that’s the whole point of everything, the suicidal part in exchange for euphoria
peter: i guess for me the euphoria is the risk and for you its watching the risk
can we get together?: yes exactly
peter: you would get euphoria to see a guy on the edge?
can we get together?: yeah
can we get together?: its actually a fetish
peter: i guess i am more the masochist type
can we get together?: yes
peter: guess suicide kindof stops everything
peter: think there is reincarnation?
peter: still there?
peter: seem more quiet and distant today
can we get together?: so do u
can we get together?: u seem distant tonight
can we get together?: reincarnation? yes, i think there is, but to a completely different form
peter: not come back as human?
can we get together?: no
can we get together?: to a different form
can we get together?: u can’t be on a same platform twice, that’ll be weird
peter: like redistribution of atoms?
can we get together?: exactly
peter: so i would no longer be aware that i existed before
can we get together?: nostalgia is still there
peter: is there conciousness?
can we get together?: depends on what form uve become
peter: but you think basically peter would be over?
can we get together?: no
can we get together?: definitely no
can we get together?: brb, toilet break
peter: ok
can we get together?: back
peter: but just my atoms will exist – not really me
can we get together?: or ur cell?
peter: think just an entirely different being or thing?
can we get together?: yes
peter: so the matter continues to exist – but not my current state
can we get together?: exactly
peter: so if fetish go wrong i just kindof go through a conversion
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: but don’t think of it like that
peter: you think some guys allow themselves to go through conversion?
can we get together?: there are people who thinks they can experience a completely different kind of euphoria when they die, so they will take an obvious risk jus to achieve it
peter: you think there is a different euphoria?
can we get together?: can’t really say, but i think there is
peter: better orgasm?
can we get together?: let’s say u incarnated to a non-existent thing, orgasm isn’t really a factor for euphoria
peter: think i would feel the different euphoria if i went to the die point?
can we get together?: hmmm
can we get together?: tempting thought it is
peter: think it would really feel better?
can we get together?: can’t ssay
peter: or similar to edge euphoria?
can we get together?: yes
peter: sortof like similar but a step further?
can we get together?: way further
peter: more intensified orgasm?
can we get together?: definitely
peter: better feeling than ever before?
can we get together?: yes
peter: but then death
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: no good lah
peter: certainly easier for the guy that is watching
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: but conscience
peter: you think guys like to see a guy go through the huge orgasm?
can we get together?: like me
peter: so you would like to watch a conversion type orgasm?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: but not u
can we get together?: ur too good to experience transition
peter: sometimes tempting but so scary
can we get together?: yeah
peter: and if i did then we cannot discuss it afterwards
can we get together?: obviously
can we get together?: and we won’t be able to experiment more
peter: its more a one time thing
can we get together?: ha?
peter: meaning if i do it – it cant really be reversed
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: so we won’t go super far
peter: think guys like to see transition?
can we get together?: not all guys
peter: have you ever seen it?
peter: probably not in an orgasm situation
peter: still there?
can we get together?: feeling tired
peter: think i should not consider transition?
can we get together?: no to transition
peter: natural to get tempted about it?
peter: hehe you are so cute that i consider such wild things
can we get together?: ye its natural
can we get together?: baby im sleepy, tired from work
peter: i will have to go soon to
can we get together?: sorry baby
peter: i guess if u saw transition it would be something just to have for memories

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Written by Patrick King Pascual

June 23, 2010 at 8:40 am

Role-playing [Part 1]

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peter: hey there
can we get together?: hey peter
peter: good to see you again
can we get together?: same here
peter: i guess i have to start thinking more seriously if i would want to set travel plans in motion
peter: have to put some money aside
peter: you still up to cuffing me?
BUZZ!!!
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: sorry was watching dvd
peter: its so exciting i think about it every day now
can we get together?: i think its a little cheap for u to travel in the phillipines considering the exchange rate of usd
can we get together?: im gettin excited too
peter: yeah maybe saving up will be easier than i think
peter: i seem to be wanting to go further and further
can we get together?: yeah i think saving as early as now is better
can we get together?: i want to see u in april
can we get together?: lets try few things first, then lets try other things
peter: do guys naturally get braver as they think about it more?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: but you have to be careful and limit yourself
peter: is it natural that it starts to get tempting to go further?
can we get together?: yes
peter: yeah it starts to get confusing how far to go
can we get together?: try something first then decide what u want to do next
peter: even at home?
can we get together?: no i mean with someone
can we get together?: wait till we meet then we’ll try something first then u decide what f u want more
peter: its odd cause for some guys i would not ever think to try such a risky thing and for other guys i am really longing to
peter: i guess its important to limit
can we get together?: yes its always important to limir
can we get together?: limit
peter: cause it seems like not limiting these things can lead to a bad thing
can we get together?: of course
peter: but then one wonders why it feels so good
can we get together?: its the thought of risking something big for ur pleasure
peter: but i guess in this case it could be really big
can we get together?: yeah life is something big lol
can we get together?: but again, limit is the key
peter: guess its somewhat easier for the guys on the non risking end of things
can we get together?: no, consciencne is something big too
can we get together?: u can get killed by it
peter: i guess for guys on the other end its the thrill of seeing the guy taking the risk  where on my end its taking it
can we get together?: yes
peter: so some guys are naturally geared to watching and others naturally geared to taking?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: human nature
peter: i suppose a bit less deadly for the guys on the watching end of things
can we get together?: yeah
can we get together?: but conscience
peter: you think guys kindof want to see a guy go further but then theres conscience?
can we get together?: conscience if something wrong happens
peter: weird how im sometimes tempted to go further and im on the dangerous end
can we get together?: ill be gentle
can we get together?: u fuck me while i tighten the belt
can we get together?: that’s going to be ecstasy
peter: you would rather be getting fucked or fucking while tightening the belt?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: that’s how things will go
peter: you would think the guy tightening the belt would also be the one doing the fucking
can we get together?: can be
peter: which one would feel better for you?
can we get together?: u fucking me and me tightening the belt?
peter: so kindof like being a bottom but still being in control
can we get together?: yes?
peter: its a weird thing cause probably as i get closer to cuming i would want you to tighten more
can we get together?: and fuck me deeper
peter: i guess at that point have to judge it carefully cause it the risk of passing out
can we get together?: passing out but its controlled
can we get together?: trst
peter: but what would happen – i would fall on top of you?
can we get together?: yes but i will not let you be unconscious
peter: revive me type thing?
can we get together?: yes, kind of when ur about to cum ul stop and feel normal again like nothing will happen
peter: sort of like having fainted?
peter: does it stop the orgasm?
can we get together?: no
can we get together?: ecstasy baby
peter: you still cum but might faint at the same time?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: believe me
peter: i guess the passing out are the few critical moments
can we get together?: ur just gonna passed out because of pleasire and nothing more
peter: well i think partially lack or oxygen or blood flow – but you have to be sure go loosen the belt when i pass out
can we get together?: of cpirse peter i will
peter: will i just naturally revive or you have to resusitate?
can we get together?: naturally
peter: sort of like coming out of a faint?
can we get together?: yes
peter: losing conciousness any time is a bit scary
can we get together?: not really loose ung consciousness
can we get together?: just feel very very tired
peter: i passed out at the doctors before and it was weird – i was not aware of anything at all till a bunch of doctors and nurses standing around me
can we get together?: it was euphoric is it?
peter: not really – just kindof didnt know what happened – maybe a split second of weakness but then i was out
peter: couldnt really tell i was about to go out just chatting with the nurse
can we get together?: heehee
peter: maybe that is what dying is like
peter: i guess through the whole thing you have a lot more control over the situation
can we get together?: yeah
can we get together?: but you can always and anytime you want to, tell me to stop
peter: is it weird to see a guy pass out?
can we get together?: yeah, a bit
can we get together?: but ur not gonna pass out completely like i said
peter: but all be out for a while at least till the revive thing kicks in
peter: but will be out
can we get together?: not really need a revive thing
can we get together?: but if you consider kissing afterwards a revive thing, then yes
peter: i think in some ways it might be like what i felt at the doctors
can we get together?: yeah, in some way peter
can we get together?: but not totally
peter: i guess the chances of die are pretty small?
can we get together?: yes, very small
can we get together?: so do i have your attention now fully?
peter: yes why?
can we get together?: when are you cumming to the philippines?
peter: i was thinking april or may but havent made arrangements yet
can we get together?: early booking is always cheaper
peter: yeah i should consider that
peter: you are in manila itself?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: in manila itself
peter: so for the tie thing we go to mindoro island?
can we get together?: yes
peter: outdoors?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: we’ll go to mindoro, to puerto galera
peter: from chats i have heard it is a gay area
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: its like sodom and gomorrah during the holy week
can we get together?: 95% of the crowd in the beach are all gays
can we get together?: 80% of the gays in the philippines go there during holy week
peter: i will be tied in a jungle type area – or on the beach? yes sounds a very populated place with gays
can we get together?: sounds a very populated, but when gays go there, they’re awake during the night and will be sleeping the whole day
peter: the tie should happen during the day?
peter: still there?
can we get together?: can be
peter: should be in jungle or beach or other location?
can we get together?: anywhere
can we get together?: we’ll find a perfect location when we get there
peter: someone told me there are caves
can we get together?: yes, but they closed it down already, been 2 or 3 years closed, because during the afternoon and in the evening, gays go there to have sex and/or orgy  —– this is in white beach, i don’t know with other islands in mindoro
peter: you would tie me close to the gay area or at other part?
can we get together?: where do you want?
peter: what is most fun for you
can we get together?: anywhere really
peter: has to be a spot not alot of public – or actually no public
can we get together?: definitely
peter: but comfortable enough to do sex stuff
can we get together?: yes
peter: you think inland or closer to beach?
can we get together?: closer to beach
can we get together?: i love the beach
peter: near the water?
can we get together?: yes
peter: you think on sand or on rock type things?
can we get together?: rocky type
peter: hehe dangerous when i pass out
can we get together?: i will not let you pass out
peter: but i think at some point i will at least faint
can we get together?: we’ll try not to
peter: it could happen though
can we get together?: it could but we won’t let it
peter: but i thought part of the thrill was seeing me reach that condition
can we get together?: yes its part but not to a point it will endanger anyone
peter: yeah i guess the danger would be fainting on the rocks unless u catch me or such
can we get together?: yes
peter: many guys feel to take risks for you?
can we get together?: i guess
can we get together?: ur the third if ever
peter: were the other two life risk type things also?
can we get together?: i guess
can we get together?: one was, i used a candle, a keyboard, big clips, electrical tape, masking tape, a belt and a hanky
peter: where did the electrical and masking tape go?
can we get together?: his head, his mouth, his arms
peter: could he see?
peter: why a keyboard?
can we get together?: he can’t he was blindfolded
can we get together?: why a kyboard? it was the only available thing i saw when we started
peter: how could u use it?
can we get together?: i wrapped it around his neck, while the keyboard itself hanging
can we get together?: so every time he moves, the keyboard will swing and the cord around his neck will tighten itself.
peter: ah wow you are very perceptive to perceive that
can we get together?: thank u
can we get together?: so its really me doing it
can we get together?: it was actually him
can we get together?: are u documenting our ym conversations?
peter: nope
can we get together?: why not?
peter: should i? – so he was actually tightening it himself – not you
can we get together?: yes please
can we get together?: he’s the one tightening not me, i was doing something else to him
peter: hehe kindof clever in case the fetish goes bad then less blame on you
can we get together?: yeah
peter: how did it go – you both enjoy?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: he’s straight
can we get together?: he never toched me
peter: he survived it ok? why did he want to do it if he was straight?
can we get together?: he survivd it okay
can we get together?: fetish peter, even if he’s straight, fetish, and he trust me
can we get together?: fetish peter, even if he’s straight, fetish, and he trusts me
peter: the fetish of risking life?
can we get together?: yes
can we get together?: he’s a massochist
peter: its so weird that my cock gets hard at risking my own life – you would think it would make it deflate
can we get together?: deflate? i don’t think so
peter: fetish are strange that way – if some one said a hamburger place has been known to sell poisonous hamburgers that could kill you one would avoid that particular hamburger place for eating – but with sex one kindof goes for the danger
can we get together?: fetish is like smoking, you can’t quit it easily
peter: i guess you are more on the side where you dont want to risk your own life but like to see it on others — where as i am one of those others
can we get together?: i used to be a masochist
can we get together?: but i got bored
peter: this way is safer for you also
can we get together?: i guess
peter: its mostly i think because of your hot looks that i could take the risk – there are other guys on bi manila that i would never think of taking such a risk for
can we get together?: am i hot?
peter: yes very that is why i get so aroused and feel like taking risk – i have notice the desire to take risk has alot to do with arousal level
can we get together?: thank u
can we get together?: baby its 2 in the morning now here, i need to sleep, i still have an early work later
can we get together?: see u again later?
peter: yeah i will try to be on again later  – you know this stuff is very addictive
can we get together?: i know
can we get together?: try to send me more photos of u
peter: its kindof like playing with my existance in some ways
can we get together?: yes
peter: you did a file transer but then it stopped
can we get together?: i accidentally pressed it
can we get together?: try to send more photos of u
peter: i will try
peter: sometimes i feel guilty about playing with my existance
can we get together?: ok
can we get together?: don’t feel guilty its perfectly normal
can we get together?: peter, i have to sleep now
peter: ok hope chat again soon – its normal that im turned on by the thought of being wiped out?
can we get together?: yes definitely normal
can we get together?: see you later?
peter: how is it for you do you like it when a guy likes this dangerous thought?

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June 16, 2010 at 11:55 am

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