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September 23, 2003

Just got back from Singapore and everything has been more confusing. I heard a lot of rumors that something is going on between KC and this Puerto Rican girl, nothing’s official yet, and for me, I felt really hurt. This bisexual guy made me wait and claimed that he’s afraid that other people would judge him if he continues to have a “relationship” with me.


I saw J walking along the corridors of the University I’m attending, I was surprised. J is the perfect guy, at that time I guess, nice eyes, nice lips, nice arms, and nice hands. What more can you ask? Yeah, he’s good in bed. He’s been my fuck buddy since my junior life, we meet and like a routine; we already know what to do…

It’s been really long since our last “adventure”, the more I think of it; the more I’m starting to long for him again. It’s been two years since I felt this “thing” with him.

And last year, I said to myself that I would never ever give in (again) to his flirting, but I ate my own words, I called him.

That night after my classes ended, I dialed his number. He answered and I asked if he’s doing anything that night, he answered, “Want to drop by and play?” I was speechless. I didn’t know what to say.

It was Halloween of 2002. I messaged my friends and told them that I won’t be able to join them in the party. I went to his house and everything was like high school again. I thought it would the last time, like a closure, but I was wrong.

May of this year, I received a message from J saying: “Hi! How are you?” It tool several minutes before I replied to his message. I wondered, how did he get my number, and is this for real, he’s (once again) back to leave me hanging again?

I gave him my landline number, he called and we talked dirty. After we said our good-bye’s to each other, I told myself that it looks like this would be the last time..


Four days after, I met the chat room, also known as mIRC.
I frequently enter these two particular channels; where all the chatters are straight acting gays and bisexuals. Everything you want in bed or in a friend or for anything – are all just a click away.

If you’re looking for a relationship, there are guys in those two channels looking for a relationship. If you want to have a quick casual sex or an orgy there are a lot of guys in the chat room who frequent those two channels looking for the same.

Just click his nickname, exchange personal information and photos, and if both of you like each other,  agree for a meet-up. That easy!

Cyber sex is different. Cyber sex is silly. Sex eyeball is the new trend; it gives a new meaning to one-night relationships.

I met Alvin, a student from La Salle, in the chat room. He dons a Rico Blanco look with braces, he’s 5’8 about 145lbs, we both agreed that he’ll go to my place and have sex. After several minutes, he left and promised to message me.



September 23, 2003

Written by Patrick King Pascual

September 17, 2010 at 5:08 am

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