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October 7, 2003

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It’s been three weeks since the chat room and I were introduced. Suddenly, it made me think, are we; the chatters, perverts or we’re just sexually challenged?

After dismissing the thought of going serious with Alvin, I made my way back to the world of the chat room, I logged in.

I met Jay. He’s 30 years old, about 5’9. He looks good. He works in a computer company and he’s up for a promotion sometime soon. We talked about a lot of things; the things I like doing, the things we might have in common, etc. Most of our conversation evolves in the questions you normally see in a high school slam book.

I enjoyed our chat even if he didn’t initiate a meet-up that night. After two hours or so, he said that he needed to sign out so he can take a rest for his 8AM the next day. I simply replied, ok.

He asked for my number and said goodbye.

Two days passed, still, no message from Jay.

Third day came, he called me. I asked if he wants to go to my place and he said that he couldn’t, he’s at the gym. He then asked for my age and I told him that I’m only seventeen. I could tell by his silence when he heard my answer that he was shocked to know that I’m that young, he thought that I’m already twenty-one.

I never lie about my age in the chat room. Most chatters, I think, prefer younger guys. I told Jay to think hard first before making any decisions or before he go to my place to have sex with me.

He never called back. I don’t know if I felt lonely or anything that time, the only thing I knew was, it did not felt good. It was like expecting something grand to happen with a guy that I barely knew, that I really like, and it didn’t happen.

Was our grandparents’ right that if you plan something so much ahead of time, that thing will most likely fail to happen? Or I’m just expecting too much to a person I only conversed twice? That night I said to myself, I’m going to have him as my lover. I know I sound desperate, and I didn’t care.

Chatters are powerful. They can lead you on and leave you hanging. They can give you so much pain, to a point that you will yearn for it and go back for more. Chatters are not perverts, sexually challenged maybe. But they don’t consider sex as love.

Sex is like a game for the chatters. The more people you have sex with, the stronger your foundation in the chat room become and the more popular you will be in the world of mIRC.

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October 7, 2003

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Written by Patrick King Pascual

September 18, 2010 at 1:55 am

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